CW: Implied Disordered Eating, Miscarriage

do angels get lonely? is heaven small and crooked? is heaven a littered bathroom? what do I do when a pair of eyes doesn’t return mine? will heaven see right through me? are they mad? is god mad at me? how many calories are in a line? what happened to craigslist missed connections? how do i know if it was a miscarriage? how do i get to heaven? how do i make an online obituary? how do i get the grief to stop burning? why is this world so heavy? so much heavier than i was promised?