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rhinoceros beetles teach boys that life is precious
by Marion Eames White
on the island of my youth, performing penance
under clouds, a wooden bridge
rises from the shaded path. a treasure trail
i use to hide from exposure to the sun.
circle the x on my map. the furtive curve of
wood over the belly- button lake
is dolloped by a boy & his
friend, a large & horned secret
held between them: shiny rhinoceros
beetle, its thick trunk the boys’ hard prize.
i wield a long stick, carve my envy over
rocks. i lack the girth to join the club. the boys
pass with hushed excitement. an impenetrable
huddle. a summer heat- born cave
of bare chests, bare shoulders, wings of
muscle wrapped around their
charming spines, callused
fingers cupping their discovery the size of my
fist, my jealousy. my jealousy alive & im-
possible to swallow. my alive feels
impossible. can’t swallow my desire. my
yearning an animal i catch with my
two hands & then let go.
Marion Eames White is a crustacean living off the coast of Massachusetts. Their first full-length collection “Museum of the Unladen Swallow” is forthcoming (Purple Palm Press, 2023).