necessary // we are all hungry things // holding ourselves back on the verge of uninhibited connection // sinking into the mud // seaweed under my armpits and tangled around my neck // trying to escape you // I saw a UFO once and my life stayed the same // I am always in that room. I can never go anywhere else // I am sorry for the wrong I have done // I am sorry for the things that put me in here // hopping on the train and hopping off, no ticket necessary // not anymore // i have dreamt about sinking every night this week // pocketing candy though I crave red meat // a vortex held in my gut // turning my face toward the shower head // not sure when I got so much blood in my hair // is moonlight such a crime // be careful when you synonymize darkness with sin // I want to be let out, but they are not so sure I would return // when they’ve let me out before, I haven’t come back // I hear the trains running in my dreams. I cannot look at the clock without thinking about the trains // an earthquake in my blood // the natural world belongs to me // naked mornings with the driest dirt between my teeth and raw meat I bit into freshly churning in my stomach // but they keep me inside down // howling // hungry // sinking