
A Hard Life
by James Penha
Is it stiff?
asked the fellow sitting
next to me at the movies,
pumped my teammate
on the wrestling squad,
catechized the seminarian
I lay with in the dunes,
grilled my boss at the diner,
queried the man I’d marry.
My comeback was invariably
yes if unspoken yet beheld.
Now it is my knee or my back
after tying my shoelaces
or cutting my toenails, chores
requiring herculean efforts;
it is the pain in the neck
I have become to myself
and him though he almost
never says it. And that other
thing? so reliable in youth—
sometimes still sometimes.
Expat New Yorker James Penha (he/him) has lived for the past three decades in Indonesia. Nominated for Pushcart Prizes in fiction and poetry, his work is widely published in journals and anthologies. His newest chapbook of poems, American Daguerreotypes, is available for Kindle. Penha edits The New Verse News, an online journal of current-events poetry. Bluesky: @JamesPenha.bsky.social