True. True.

by Ismim Putera

CW: Body Image, Transphobia/Homophobia, Wound

True.

I am a feminine man

my skin is gauzy

sunlight stitches its tropical heat

on it, even on rainy days

True.

I have two testicles

like ripened red rambutan

a slouching spine

and a brilliant mind

True. 

my face is oval

my vision elliptical

in my eyes, you’ll find a handful of

fine-shaped Asian men

True.

bring all the mirrors here

I can strip all day

beauty indeed, is a skin-deep

diabetic wound

True.

use your tongue

to measure my hips

when I do Arabian belly dance

on the back of the two-humped camel

True.

people curse the marrow 

in my bone

my hands will never be veiny enough

to lift up Mount Everest

True,

I survived 

domesticated manhood

on the Savanna, I’m 

a tiger in a tigress’ stripe

True.

I am a Virgo goddess 

muscular men worship my authenticity

I grant their wishes

now and then

True.

nothing can emasculate me

I have the mane of a lioness

I am a feminine man—

Oh! True, true

Ismim Putera (he/him) is a poet and writer from Sarawak, Malaysian Borneo. His work has recently appeared in Fahmidan Journal, Voice and Verse Magazine Issue 53 and Fudoki magazine.