I love you so much

by Deja Carr

I love you so much I could call you everyday

I love you so much sometimes I put lotion on my ankles before sex

I love you so much I keep your picture on my nightstand

I love you so much I want to cry and break things

I love you so much I haven’t farted in over 5 months

I love you so much you should get that looked at

I love you so much I do not kill small animals

I love you so much I am the small animal in the lions mouth some days

I love you so much I remember even in my bones

I love you so much I make you smoothies even when my hands have cramps in them

I love you so much I live in my truth for all to see

I love you so much this game doesn’t get old

I love you so much yes it does but I still love you

You are the violin. First instrument. Second chair

You are the drum. Enough said

You pry the language from the tooth. In times of hardship, the tooth hides in the lining- where did you get those pliers though imaginary you pry the language from the tooth. Splendid ways to spend your life in magic isn’t it.

Deja Carr is an artist and writer originally from New York, who currently lives in Amherst, MA. She has been awarded by Harvard for activism in music, as well as City Space, the Wildflower Collective and others. Carr is the spearhead behind the project Mal Devisa, which is a songwriting, liberation, and poetry project.  Masterfully a genre-hopper, her work spans everything from soulful rock to unabashed hip hop, lush experimental to folk, lo-fi to jazz. Often accompanied by heavy bass, clever loops, and hard-hitting lyrics – her voice is unmistakable, yet versatile.